Contemplations

It's been forever, I know this. We'll see how it goes now that things are starting to get into a rhythm. We'll see how long this rhythm actually stays!

Lulu is teething fiercely again. She is seriously working on 8 teeth! Some had gone down but now they are back in force. My sleep hasn't recovered from the first go around of teeth attacking. I guess I'll just get my sleep back when I'm dead. ;)

Millikins is doing pretty well. Her broken finger is being 'rehealed' in her special glove quite well.
I have to admit that I was skeptical that wearing a brace at night would really do anything to fix a broken knuckle that healed calliwampus. But, I have to eat my opinions now. I am amazed at how much improvement has happened in these short 4 weeks, we have 2 more weeks before we see the Dr again.

Lulu is rolling from front and from her back now; although she forgets how to do both at some points through out the day. She is always so amazed when she rolls over; her face says, 'it's the greatest invention ever and I figured it out! Did you see me!?' Too Cute

Lulu at 4 months

Millikins is at a totally fun stage for me right now. She talks ALL THE TIME, ok sometimes that's not the most fun. But, we have such interesting conversations. She is really into trying to say words fully correct; and when she does conqure a word that has been difficult for her she jumps up in the air and yells 'I got it!' The joy of it is such an amazing thing to watch. Millikins is really trying to figure out this big world around her. I can't believe I get to be her coach and help her through it all, I am truly blessed.

I am surviving! That's the best that can be said at the moment. I have really great days where I am the Mother and Wife I want to be, than other days...hmmm...not so much. I am not the nicest person to be around when I'm tried, and with Lucy's teething and being up all nights nursing and comforting her I haven't gotten the needed sleep. Still, most days I think I'm doing ok.

I've joined Weight Watchers now. I need to feel good about myself. I am also seeing a counselor to deal with some emotional baggage I've carried for FAR too many years. I am feeling lighter, in both physically and emotionally ways. In the past three weeks I've lost 7 pounds! I'm so excited by that number! I hope I can keep it up and not allow myself to become disappointed and lose hope. I think my total goal is going to be around 30 lbs lost. I feel that I can accomplish this. If I stay on the same numbers I have been pulling each week I could be done by mid-August; but I'm giving myself to the end of the year to make this reality my own. I'll keep ya posted.